July 9th, 2007
im ready!
Posted by blogkopo at 12:16 AM on July 9, 2007.
just in my last post, i was talking about how im not ready having a commitment right now. looks like i was wrong then. im ready now and i want it. again, i have a new boyfriend, hehehe. we're just a month old. i don't know but ive realized that im not getting any younger, i don't wanna fool around again, i want it to work this time. im trying to be good now. promise! im trying so hard to be a good girlfriend but right now, honestly i haven't been good yet. im this hard-headed girlfriend who goes her way despite her bf's disapproval. hehehe. but that's the last of it, ill be good now. swear. 
Currently listening to: gwen's sweet escape
Currently feeling: optimistic
June 3rd, 2007
commitments?!
Posted by blogkopo at 02:54 AM on June 3, 2007.
After 8 months being single, nagka-boyfriend ulet ako... xa ung guy na dating pinipair-up saken sa office. Eventually, akala ko I was ready to commit again sa isang seryosong relationship... still. I realized na I
wasn't ready for any serious stuff right now especially when it comes to relationships. I don’t know but all of a sudden I became afraid of commitments. Whatever happened to me... I really can't explain. For the past few months I’ve been waiting for a real relationship and just when I thought I was ready...
Almost 1 month and I can't bear to lie to myself nor hurt him more so I decided to end it all up. I have to admit that I’m dating someone else right now but just to clarify things out, it’s not third party. Swear. It just so happened that after the break up I just decided to just go on dates... ON DATES and not commitments. I just want to take things slow, as of the moment what I really need is a partner and not just a lover.
Someone will help me grow as a person and not just inhibits me to do the things I enjoy most. In short someone who will simply enjoy life with me and just go with the flow of life.
I hate complications... Kidding aside but it seems complicated things always go my way. waaaa.. It’s futile to blame it all to life. I just wish I knew how to handle things better. *sigh*
Currently listening to: sugae, were goin down
Currently feeling: numb
April 29th, 2007
i so miss this!
Posted by blogkopo at 03:44 AM on April 29, 2007.
been a while since my last entry... a lot of things had changed.. again with my stupidity fell inlove with a guy who has a girlfriend. after a few weeks of dating, we call called ot off. been depressed but thanked god im all good now with a new boyfriend. hahaha! my life had been routinary for the past few months. hahaha "routinary" gimmicks included. a week would never pass without the thursday drinking session. but at least after two years i was able to go back to galera with my officemates this time. still working and next month its our batch anniversary having only 4 members... from 24 to 4 waaaa. so sad!
Currently feeling: bored
November 12th, 2006
Yahooooo!
Posted by blogkopo at 06:28 AM on November 12, 2006.
Im totally over him! Let's celebrate! Woohoo!
Funny how fast i recovered! guess, i was so stupid to be so depressed after all. definitely not worth it. I was depressed before but got busy with my officemates that I forgot that he existed! Hahaha! the helmet was finally off, im again starting my new fresh life! another year added to my age, new month to start with and a new guy to get busy with! :D
Lessons learned.
To sum it all up...
I have my life back again! XD
Currently feeling: blissful!!!
October 6th, 2006
cry
Posted by blogkopo at 04:23 AM on October 6, 2006.
The Sundays
and I'm standing on a platform
now I'm staring from a train
and all the trees roll back beside but I'm so oblivious
to the dark to the light
it's all the same
you gave me so much and now it's of the earth
and it makes me cry
(it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
it can make me cry
and you're standing here beside me
in a picture in a frame
and your voice could never fade it's so familiar
things you said in my head
every day
you gave me so much
and now it's of the earth
and it makes me cry
(it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
and it can make me cry
you're with me so much
though you're never with me anymore
and it makes me cry
(it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
it can make me cry
(oh it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
(yeah it makes me cry, it can make me cry)
Currently feeling: sad
August 6th, 2006
late post
Posted by blogkopo at 07:57 PM on August 6, 2006.
as of the moment im doing good...
i have new found friends at work... they're quite nice. 
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I was suppose to post this last July 15, 2006... but then i forgot...
After a week of receiving calls, Im getting used to being pressured.
Pressured because at the very moment you receive a call it is expected that you give the best possible resolution at the shortest span of time.
And not being able to do that makes me really frustrated.
Patience is indeed a virtue!
I had this customer, an old lady, she keeps on making me repeat everything that I've just said because according to her I talked too fast. She keeps telling me that she can't understand the words that are coming out of my mouth and she wants me to repeat it again. How come?
The other customers that I've talked to before her told me that I speak goog english. How's that for a compliment from an american? So I really can't understand that old lady. Besides she really dumb when it comes to computer, Im sorry for the words its just that we talked for about 40 minutes!!! She was my longest and meanest customer that I had that day.
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Im not good... my relationship with you know who, is terribly not going anywhere. I mean, we don't text, we don't see each other, there's no effort on his side. Its always been me for months? If I don't text him, he won't text me. If I don't suggest that we see each other we probably would not see each other for months! Im close to getting tired to make the "relationship" work. It should be a two-way relationship and not just me. Everytime I ask him if he still wants the relationship up and running,
he would say YES. But I don't see in his actions that he still wants it to work. He may be busy with his work, but would it take so much of his time to ask me how my day was or stuff like. I miss the person he was. He's totally not the same person I knew 2 years ago. The thoughtful guy that would text me good morning, asking me where I am, having lunch and dinner together, watching movies, walking somewhere while talking
everything under the sun, texting me goodnight and sweetest dreams. I don't see that person anymore. Is it just because we've been together for quite sometime and he thinks that its not necessary anymore. But no, I had friends with longer realtionships and still they're good.
I really miss the person he was. Really... I wish I could go back to those times. :'c
"Isang iglap naisip mo na ayaw mo na, lumingon sandali lang bago mo tuluyang iwan nais kong... Sumigaw palabas at sasabihin sa iyo ang lahat... Tumakbo palayo at iiwanan ang alaala mo... Nanginginig nalulungkot nahihibang at tulala... Pagod na yata ang ngiti
nauubos din ang tuwa nag-iisa umiiyak nahihirapang huminga... At kung hindi na babalik sana sa pagising ay wala na ang nadaramang sakit... At kung hindi na babalik ipipilit sa sarili na hindi ako nagkamali..."
*sigh*
Currently feeling: peaceful
July 6th, 2006
*sigh*
Posted by blogkopo at 07:44 AM on July 6, 2006.
Just because my eyes don't mist doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry...
Just because I come out strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong...
Often,I choose to be happy so I don't have to explain myself to people who'll never understand. Smiling has always been easier than explaining why I am sad.
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People often says: "Kung tayo para sa isa't-isa, tayo talaga..."
Such a cliche. Don't they realize that without effort, Destiny is useless?!?
Currently feeling: sad
July 5th, 2006
tired of loving?
Posted by blogkopo at 11:58 PM on July 5, 2006.
have you ever feel tired of loving someone who doesn't love you as much as you do?
have you given almost everything and still he doesn't appreciate it?
have you ever consider yourself desperate for even trying to save a "relationship" that is not worth saving?
have you ever tried to knock yourself off just to let the idea sink-in that enough is enough?
have you?
I just did.
Hate myself for being inlove with a person who doesn't appreciate me.
*sigh*
Currently feeling: disappointed
July 4th, 2006
live calls
Posted by blogkopo at 11:14 PM on July 4, 2006.
tomorrow will be our qa call, and i hope we all pass.
we'll be having our live calls tonight, im so nervous because what if i didn't resolve the customer's issue? what if the first call i receive is about the dsl set-up?!? its gonna be really tiring because its a very long method. you have to set-up the physical connection, the configuration, modem setting, mail client, personal start up page and all that. i just hope that thr first call that il be receiving is just a simple pop number/access number error so i could just give another access number. hahaha! and just say and send the long distance disclaimer! wahahaha!
am so sleepy... had a fever a while ago. im not feeling well tonight. But I can never be absent not during training or else I have to submit my resignation letter. ahuhu! Im already hungry too... 1hour and 30 minutes more before our lunch time. waaa...
Currently feeling: nostalgic
